eyes turning red over her keyboard
typing the essays she hoped would say more…
Ugh.
So, I got my info back from the place that may have been my student loan last chance–the place that my financial adviser gave me the info on saying that a lot of students were able to get loans on their own from there when they couldn’t get them anywhere else. As mentioned previously (I think) I tried to submit an application and they didn’t want to let me do so w/o cosigner information, so I sent them an email. Well, I got one back saying ‘we don’t have an application on file for you…’ (I know! your site wouldn’t let me submit one!) but there is a (tiny almost invisible) box on the cosigner form that you can check saying you don’t have a cosigner.
Yeah there is, and when you click submit (after you find the tiny box) it pops up a dialogue box to ask you if you are SURE you don’t want to add a cosigner.
Anyway, as you may guess, they turned me down too. Damn my youthful restraint in not getting a credit card and miring myself in debt!
I know I’ve said this but I find it very frustrating that, even though I’m responsible and get good grades and, oh yeah, HAVEN’T been in debt before….no one wants to give me money.
So, I have spent part of tonight filling out scholarship applications, trying to sound witty and unique in the almost identical essay questions for the different scholarships, wondering if they might consider me even though I didn’t fight my way out of the ghetto and a high school that was almost as bad as the streets, never giving up even though my boyfriend got killed in a gang war and left me with two children who I want to be able to provide for and give them a better life.
My brain hurts and I’m depressed.
