Archive for October, 2009

22
Oct

my super exciting trip to California…part 3

Well, I decided that I should probably finish writing about my first wedding trip of the month before I left for my second, and before I entirely forgot what events transpired…but considering that it is late and I am tired and still have to pack and haven’t yet eaten food today and have dinner waiting…I shall try to make this somewhat brief.  (Hey!  I said try, people!) If nothing else, I promise that the writing will be shoddy and artless.

So, dear friends, when we last spoke, I was eating chicken soup and passing out like a rock.  The next morning my body decided to operate under the assumption that it now had permission to make me feel miserable, so I woke up feeling less than stellar.  Honestly…not a LOT less…the virus that attacked, though lingering (I’m still a quart low), seems not to be all that vicious, but I still felt unpleasant on a very grey day.  Which was why I took great pleasure in the fact that I could pretty much curl up on the couch, drink tea and watch TV for as long as I wanted to…and there was a Mythbusters marathon on–score!  Around midday, my mom and I went and ran a few important errands–such as acquiring a stash of Scharffenberger chocolate for me to take back to PA with me–then returned to the house where we ate lunch and I promptly passed out again.

Sadly, I slept a bit longer than I should have and made sweet, darling Heather doubt that I loved her when the birthday gathering she had postponed especially for me began at 5pm and I was no where to be seen and failing to answer my phone.  BUT I did wake up at 5:30, call her in fervent apology and hurry mom out the door and to her house…I think we were an hour late at most.

I had been a little concerned, after my inability to socialize at Shawnie’s wedding, that perhaps it was just ME.  I mean, I hardly leave the house other than to go to school, and I don’t really interact with my fellow students there unless I absolutely have to, for the most part…I mostly only see Briggs, and a couple times a week spend time with Anna’s family.  I was wondering if maybe it was just that I was so out of practice that I couldn’t comfortably socialize with a group of people larger than two or three.

I. Had. An. Awesome. Time.  Some of my bestest, oldest friends were there–a few people I wished I could have seen were annoyingly out of the state or the country, but being the magnanimous person I am, I forgive them–but some of the guests were people I had met only once, or spent just a little time with…not people I had a deep level of emotional intimacy with.  And I had fun.  Having rolled off the sofa and headed straight over, I was wearing a baggy hoodie, no make-up and loose-fitting jeans, and a number of the other girls had obviously put time into their appearances, but I still somehow didn’t feel so horribly dowdy and unattractive that I needed to hide in a corner.  I ate food…like, in front of other people.  That’s pretty much maximum Ra comfort level.

I won’t go into all the details of the evening…there’s honestly not that much to tell.  We just hung out and talked and laughed and all those things that a group of friends does.

I do want to mention that I might just have the awesomest friends ever (I AM talking about the people who couldn’t be there, too) and my trip would have sucked a whole lot more if I hadn’t gotten the emotional balm of spending time with you guys.

And also that I’m glad that I’m not one of those people who has to stubbornly go against their parents’ ideals on principal, because my mom is constantly impressed by how great they all are too, and if I were a different kind of person, that would mean I couldn’t be friends with you anymore.

I got a ride home around 9 and got my piles of stuff re-compiled for my departure the next day.  At some stupid early hour, like 8am, Heather came and picked me up to drag me downtown, as her mom wanted to see me while I was in town, so we stopped in and said hi…then we went over to Erin’s house and I met her adorably awesome Cavalier King Charles spaniel and Siamese kitties before we all headed downtown to get coffee.  While we were at my favorite Starbucks/Barnes and Noble, Heather picked up the next book in the series I’m reading for me.  (Thank you! I’m almost done with it and I love it.)   The three of us returned to my mom’s house and sipped at our various beverages and chatted with my mom until it was time for almost-tearful good-byes.

After hugs and promises to call upon a safe landing, mom and I departed early enough to allow for any bad traffic…of which there was, of course none, ensuring I got to the airport with lots and lots of time to wait for my…two-hour-delayed flight.  *shrug*  I got homework done.

Anyway, I got home, got pretty much caught up on homework (I’m getting there, people!) and tomorrow, Briggs and I are taking a lovely drive through pretty fall foliage down to the town of Bryn Athyn to photograph his cousin Todd’s wedding.  In my free time I will, once again be doing homework.

17
Oct

interlude – LHC

after Jim posted THIS, I was inspired to hunt this video down again.

16
Oct

My super exciting trip to california…part 2

…THE WEDDING….  (insert ominous music here)

The day after my arrival in the Golden State dawned bright and early…ish…at 9:30 am or so.  I quickly prepared tea, showered, got dressed and got all my belongings re-packed in my travel bag (in some order or other), as Shawnie was planning to pick me up at about 11am, after which I would not be returning to my mom’s house until after the wedding on Saturday.

The experience did not, all in all, start badly.  Shawnie and I caught up as she drove us over to her house so she could finish embroidering a few napkins for the event (by machine, I thankfully discovered).  Time passed a little slowly while napkins were embellished, but we chatted about life and pets and the wedding and dresses, and watched music videos online.  Then we got the car packed up and began the lovely drive to Sonoma (for non CA locals — about a half-hour trip).  We chatted more about the wedding and I mentioned how impressed I was with her level-headedness regarding headaches and bumps in the road, and shared amusement with her at the fact that her MoH was being more of a crazy bridezilla in the situation than she was.  We stopped at the dollar store to pick up some last minute items, like wrapping paper and gift bags for a few wedding party gifts, and goofed and chatted while we wandered the aisles.

Then we returned to the car, drove up the hill and arrived at the truly lovely home where I would be spending the next day and a half.

Shawnie immediately relaxed in her element and started doing stuff — getting stuff put away, asking various people about the state of certain preparations — and I found myself wandering after her like a lost puppy asking where to put my stuff, whether there was anything I could do to help, could I please go home now because I was having a dark dark vision of my future…okay, maybe I didn’t say that last one out loud, but the vile premonition was burbling inside me regardless.

Already feeling somewhat overwhelmed by the unknown shiny, healthy yuppies around me, so efficiently making preparations and scooting me out of the way any time I thought i had found an unbusy corner to stand in, I inquired after and was grudgingly granted an area in which to indulge my filthy smoking habit, so long as I didn’t flick my ashes and butts into the dry grass…even if I HADN’T grown up in California, I might have figured that one out on my own.  After scuttling off, Gollum-like, to a far corner of the pool patio with my purse and my fantasy novel, I took a few deep breaths and tried to tell myself that I really could talk to these people without my head exploding and I was NOT going to cry.  Of course, right about then, the groom and his men showed up and began bringing alcohol down to the pool area.  I tried to remain unobtrusive, but apparently black pants, shoes, hoodie and hair somehow failed to camouflage me against the pale grey rocks of the pool patio, and Brennian, the man of the hour came over to drop a few distracted words of welcome and a warning that my smoking was frowned upon.

The weekend didn’t really improve from there.

I was dragged to meet a hairdresser who agreed to come to the house and do all our hair the next morning for a flat fee which Shawnie proclaimed that we could break into equal pieces and each pay a part of, forcing me to cringingly confront her in private and explain yet again that I had come to town absolutely broke.

The entire wedding party looked a bit like they belonged in the pages of an Ambercombie or American Eagle catalog…all they needed was a game of touch football or a bonfire…and for me to stay out of the shots.

Until the last brides’ maid arrived around 6:30, I was pretty sure that I would be the only girl in the wedding party wearing a dress above a size 4.  Had that been the case, I can’t promise I wouldn’t have strangled Shawnie in her sleep.

I woke up the morning of the wedding with a truly lovely cold — congested sinuses and a mother of a headache…but couldn’t stay in bed an watch TV or even really mention I was sick because there was way too much to do.

But MOSTLY…everyone there was pretty much already friends.  They know each other and have inside jokes and I was a giant outsider all weekend.  Not an awesome way to feel.

Now, it wasn’t like everyone there was a huge jerk or anything…I mean, sure, I think that a couple of the other brides’ maids were just…well, would never get me.  And I didn’t get to know all of the grooms’ men, so maybe some of them were huge a-holes.  BUT…people were very nice…I was just terrified of them.  So my discomfort was only increased by the knowledge that they probably thought I was an aloof snob that thought I was too good to talk to them or something.

And not EVERYTHING was bad, either.  I love Brennian’s mom and step mom.  They are wonderful.  On Friday night, after the boys went to the hotel and a couple of the brides’ maids who weren’t staying at the house that night took off, I ventured upstairs and got drafted to help prepare food for the next day’s breakfast and lunch…it was good to be doing something and kind of fun.  After that I ended up chatting with the other brides’ maid that was staying the night.  Though a skinny, pretty,  little thing, she was also geeky, glasses-wearing and has a great love of fantasy novels, and she, Shawnie and I hung out and talked for a little while before going to sleep.

And the wedding was, quite honestly, beautiful.  Extravagant, and a butt-load of time and money to spend on a few hours of an event, but very beautiful.  Shawnie looked like a princess, the ceremony was lovely and the time of day was perfect.

However, I learned that the wedding party doesn’t really get to do jack at a wedding.

Eventually we were allowed out of seclusion to head down to the reception, and I was seated next to probably the best person I could have from the wedding party — Steve is an old roommate of a couple of my friends and an ex boyfriend of another friend and doesn’t get me but still likes me okay.  The food was decent (catered from a local deli), but I was tired, cold, emotionally spent and stuck there until my mom and the friends she came up with were ready to leave.  After dinner, toasts and the official dances, I ran off to get my hoodie, then wandered back and forth between the reception and the house for a little while before I finally did what I should have done in the first place — made myself a cup of tea, grabbed my book, a blanket and an oatmeal cookie and curled up in a chair on the patio and enjoyed myself for the first time that evening.  Unfortunately, just as my tea was cool enough to drink, mom let me know that we were leaving.

However, when we got home, there was chicken soup waiting for me.  I dumped my dress on the floor, changed into pjs and curled up under blankets on the couch and had chicken soup and watched random TV and then passed out like a rock.  And that was better.

Next, our stunning conclusion!

14
Oct

interlude

I’m feeling out of sorts today.

I’m having a less-than stellar week, artistically…I’m back at the grindstone with school projects and rather uninspired on any of my own–not that I really have that kind of time right now, but I want inspiration to be there anyway.  I did a little personal sketching on the plane before I got down to homework on the way to CA and, heck, it COULD have been the 3 hours of sleep talking but what came out was not what I wanted.  And also, speed-drawing…not my skill-set.  Wow.  Harder than I thought.

Today while on cruising the interweb I saw some awesome sketchbooks and had art envy:

I love the way these people use their sketchbooks…not only are they amazing artists that humble me, they aren’t restricted by the boundaries of the paper…they draw to the edges and over center seams.  They paint and color.  I think I used to use my sketchbooks much more loosely, but since I’m often working on something that I intend to later scan and color, I’ve gotten more used to working within the confines of the page, and making somewhat more finished pieces.  I usually just use one side of my book, as I work a lot in pencil and have yet to find a way to keep myself from smearing it.  And sometimes I’ll throw a little color down…after I have scanned and saved the original line art that I plan to work with later.

*sigh*

I suppose I’ve just been seeing a lot of amazing art around lately and have been in a bit of a lull period myself, and haven’t had time to work on the areas I feel deficient, or something so I am going through just a touch of self-loathing and fall is making me feel emo.  I just finished a sketch of Botticelli’s Birth of Venus for an Editorial Illustration project, and it pretty much looks like her…but seems…uninspired.  I’m also sick and feeling a little out of touch with school so far this quarter due to the disruption of my schedule in the first week, and I had hot chocolate and fell asleep on the couch and had weird dreams about living places we never lived and knowing people we never knew and embarking on a project I never had.  One of those strange naps that, after waking, has you questioning your own reality for a good while, and sometimes gives you moments of uncertainty for days to come.